H E L P M E

I like to do things big. I'm talkin' HUGE. I like parties or conversations or events or whatever else to be over the top huge so that everyone always remembers and talks about it.

mmmKay?

This year, I turn 21.

Obviously I'm doin' it big.

I'm the last one of my friends to turn 21 so this is obviously a big deal. Not to mention that I expect absolutely nothing less than Princess treatment for the month (and a half) that I celebrate my birthday and if you don't treat me as such, I cry. A lot. See, if you click here you can see me wearing a crown for my 20th birthday. I also cried a lot that day because things didn't go my way and I have this thing about Birthdays, especially mine, where the day has to be UTTERLY PERFECT for that person because DUH its your birthday and we are celebrating you so that means its your day and YOU CHOOSE because you are said prince or princess. That was also one of the longest run-on sentences ever.

Birthdays hold a special place in my heart. In fact, not even 2 weeks ago I spent something like 45 minutes on the phone with my friend 2 days before her birthday (a 21st mind you) trying to tell her how amazing birthdays are and no matter what happens she can't be a sourpuss because it is her BIRTHDAY. a day completely devoted (in my eyes) to her and what she wants. She wanted to skip her birthday entirely and frankly, we just can't have that nonsense going on.

When I was little, my birthday was the MOST IMPORTANT DAY EVER.
Mostly because I've always been a little bit conceited and I like to think very highly of myself.
WHAT OF IT? :] (just kidding.. except for when its my birthday)

My birthday is on June 16. (mark your calendar or set a reminder in your phone, whatever it is so you remember to pop in and wish me happy birthday or send me a card or a diamond.. whatever you choose)

That's a Thursday this year which means I'm taking a 4 day weekend and LIVING IT UP all 4 days.

Okay.. so maybe just 3 days since Sunday will likely be the recovery day...

Now, I need these 4 days to be the biggest and most spectacular days ever.

this is where you come into play.

 I want YOUR help to plan my

 21st birthday.

(did the hot pink help to capture your attention?)

So please, drop me a line (as in words) and help me live it up.

Commenting.

I am possibly the WORST commenter in the entire world.

Okay, well thats not entirely true I'm sure but I do know I must be right up there.

Here is the truth...

I love to comment. That being said, I love to comment when I feel I have something worthwhile to say whether it be witty, funny, or deep like the ocean, I'm going to comment the crap out of your page. BUT 99.9999999% of the time, I feel like whatever I come up with just isn't good enough or worthy enough to be posted for your enjoyment.

I mean you guys are all awesome and comment to me and make me feel all ooey and gooey inside all the time. I should be doing the same for you on the regular.

So now I'm going to make it a point to comment NO MATTER WHAT because I read all of your FABULOUS blogs and you probably don't even know I've been there because the asshole in me hasn't said anything.

I have only one request, leave your URL below so that I can double check and make sure I am following/reading you.

Here is my pledge/vow/promise(whatever you want to call it) for the next week (starting today) I will comment on every single blog I read to hopefully get me into a better habit of commenting.


I just wanted to toss this out there before I posted my *REAL* post (repetative much?) today.

Boring.

Do you remember me?

I'm that one that is supposed to be writing here.

but here's the thing, (there is always a thing isn't there?) I have zero inspiration these days because I'm all girly and emotional and blah blah blah. No it isn't that time of month (yet, although, it is RIGHT around the corner.. sorry to the gents that read..) I'm just not feeling like myself, and haven't for a week now. I'm thinking something is up.. but I'm still in the denial phase of it all, so as I lay around and write countless depressing/ihatemylife/crywhinemoany posts, I just hit delete before any of you can read it.

Sorry, they are usually good for a laugh and one of these days I'll share a depressing one with you. I mean, I'm that girl who tries to get all deep and meaningful when writing the "I'm sad" posts. I try to come up with all kinds of metaphors to describe the pain and sorrow I feel inside. It's quite entertaining. Seriously. Also, I'm one of those "I need you to feel my pain with me so I'm not alone" kind of people.

Ugh, I hate myself when I'm all depressy and yuck. (is depressy even a word.. or a "good" made up word?)

So yeah, I've been a big ball of fun and I've sucked even more because I haven't kept you guys posted.

Feel free to send me a smack over the internet.

My life basically consists of working, going to school (which is going really well btw) and freezing my ass off. It is Michigan and it is winter. IT'S EFFING COLD.

So, I'm going to continue to shiver over here and work on a post that is worth reading. Not a fluff piece because seriously, who likes fluff pieces? They are boring.

A Daddy/Daughter Story Part 3.

This is the 3rd and final chapter in the Daddy/Daughter Trilogy. Since its been a month since I posted the first two parts, catch up on them here at Part 1 and here at Part 2. Now, let the story begin... or end.. whatever.

I think the look of shock on my face when those words came out of Mosey's mouth was probably one for the record books. Having dinner with her dad was the LAST thing I thought would happen ever in a million years, in fact, we had been scoping out other restaurants in the area trying to figure out where to go. Of course, my exhaustion didn't help at this point. I was so tired I could barely function but we got our behinds out of the car and made our way into Applebee's in Bradenton Florida for dinner with my friend and her father... whom she had literally met 5 minutes earlier... talk about a surreal moment.

The 4 of us walked into the restaurant and watched the two of them talking and laughing. She looked nervous but so happy and he seemed so at ease sitting next to his long lost daughter.

We sat down and did our introductions and then the topic of him going to Davison and having hung out with some of our parents came up and it was so cool to see. Mama B couldn't stop smiling.

It was so incredible listening to the stories he had to tell and listening to the conversation that went on between them. I swear to you I can't do them justice here.

After dinner, the 4 of us left the restaurant to give them some time to talk. We walked around the plaza and chatted about some interesting conspiracy theories (they were more crazy than anything) and what was happening 100ft away from us.

I then went to my car and crashed. Hard. I was exhausted and frankly, needed some sleep.

When all was said and done, I was woken up to see one very happy Mama B.

She had met her dad.
He even drew her a picture and signed it "love, dad."

It was incredible.

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Many of you may be wondering what the deal is with the story now, almost 2 months after the fact (sorry about that). Mama B and her dad talk on a regular basis. He sent her a super adorable Christmas gift of baby shoes (saying it was like her first pair of shoes that he wasn't able to buy her) and a tape of him singing Blue Christmas. She is currently planning on going down to Florida at the end of February, during Spring Break, and spending the week with him to get to know him better.

I don't think any of us expected this outcome but let me tell you, we are all super excited and loving what is happening.

I have hopes of getting some of her thoughts for a later post (I'll be seeing her this weekend so maybe I can squeeze something out of her) so you can read her side of the story.

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I will be attempting to put together a slideshow with pictures of that day.
My best friend really did a beautiful job with her photography. It is incredible the emotion you see in this. I'm also hoping to share with you a video she made about that day so you can see/hear what Mama B has to say about everything.

2011, I love you already. Don't make me regret saying that.

To say I have enjoyed the first 5 days of the New Year would be an understatement.

I mean really, I haven't been so happy to see a year go since 2004. I don't remember why I was so happy to see 2004 go, it probably had something to do with being an angsty 14 year old. Ah well, se la vie (is that how you even spell that?) to the old and Bienvenue to the new. (I don't even know if that is the same language. hah)

So, for 2011, I am trying some new things to keep this year positive and hopefully ick free.

Here are 5 AWESOME things that are going to happen throughout 2011.

1. I am writing a "Grateful for" journal. I have a brand new journal (that I found empty on my shelf BONUS) that I write the date and what I'm grateful for from that day. I haven't had any problems coming up with anything yet since its been nothing but the awesome around my life since I've started.

Editor's Note: When I was in 4th grade we would have in class spelling bees, I'll never forget the day that we had the word grateful and went through the line 4 times (not even exaggerating) before somebody spelled it right and seriously, we spelled it the same way each time g-r-e-a-t-f-u-l. You would think we would've learned after the 2nd time around but no. Now, I'll never forget how to spell grateful.

2. I have registered for 2 classes and they start on Thursday. I can't even begin to explain to you how excited I am to get my learn on. Yeah, I just said that. Hopefully, I will be extremely successful, working full time (and then some) going to school and balancing my social life. How does/did that work out for you guys?

3. I am focusing back on me. I finally have time for myself and damnit, I'm going to take advantage of that! I'm hoping to get back to making my little felt creatures and felt cozy's. Possibly pick up my brushes and start painting again. I don't know! THE POSSIBILITIES ARE ENDLESS. GAH! I couldn't be more excited to finally get back to me.

4. I am going to be travelling a LOT more this year. I have already planned on going out to DC to visit my sister and brother-in-law 2 times this year, I'm trying to figure out how to get out of the country and visit Italy or Greece.. I'm not sure which yet, it also may not happen this year, but it is my goal. I will also try to get around my home state a little more because Michigan has a LOT to offer. I'm pretty excited for that too. I'm probably going to try to get out west again as well. I want to see all 50 states by the time I'm 50 and I have 13 (which includes DC) under my belt so there is a LOT of states left.

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST.

5. I'M FINALLY TURNING 21!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All of my friends are already 21 and or have a birthday in the next 3 months. It will be so much easier to go out without them trying to accomodate me all the damn time. :]

So yeah, I have a lot of fantastic things planned for 2011.

Let's get the ball rolling 2011, shall we?

Now, back to our regularly scheduled programming *hopefully* tomorrow.