Tuesday, December 28, 2010

I will be the one with bells & whistles, celebrating your departure.

Dear 2010,


What the eff?


You were kind of a jerk.
Okay, more like I want to sucker punch you in the nads because you were such an asshole to me.
ALL. YEAR. LONG.


Sure, there were some good times, but I haven't really thought too much about those in the past couple months. So before we get into you beating me with a wooden spoon, lets discuss the good things shall we?


January:
  • Welcomed the New Year
February:
  • Applied for a new job and got said new job. (thank god)
April:
  • Got to go out to DC to see my Sister.
June:
  • My birthday. Duh.
August:
  • New Hampshire with my Family = AMAZING.
October:
  • Paid off my Car Loan & got a New Car.
November:
  • Went to Florida
  • One of my Best Friend's got to meet her Father for the first time (I SWEAR I'M FINISHING THE TRILOGY)
December:
  • I got accepted and officially get to be a college student again :]
So you see, the list is short. VERY short. Thankfully, there are a few good things in there, otherwise I probably would've gone ABSOLUTELY crazy.


I am trying REALLY hard not to let the bad outweigh the good.. okay?


So let's get into the crap you dished out to me 2010, shall we?


February:
  • The weekend before I start my new job I need a new gas line in my car. Which means I had to pay for a tow and for it to be fixed as well as a new tank of gas for me and the person toting my ass around. The next week my car payment was due and I had ZERO money to even get to work let alone pay that. thankfully one of my last paychecks from the Bob came in and I could cover it. But I was broke until my first paycheck on the final day of the month.
April:
  • I lost a friend. He committed suicide the night before Easter. That was not a phone call I ever wanted to receive, not that anyone does. I spent the next week in a blur of emotions, taking care of everyone because people thought I was seasoned at helping people take care of this since this was my 3rd friend that I had lost to suicide. You know, it wasn't until everything was over and I was sitting alone that anyone asked me how I was doing, not even my boyfriend. I was angry then, not terribly angry now about it because I truly do understand. I miss Julian a lot.
June:
  • Despite it being my birthday (which birthdays are awesome no matter what) it was a sucky birthday because I turned 20. There is nothing fun about being 20. At all. Need I say more?
August:
  • The day before a work fundraiser and two days before I leave to go to New Hampshire, my freakin' car, Alfie, breaks down. I was on my way home from cleaning it when I noticed it driving funny. Then it started smoking and I pulled over. And, as my luck would have it, it was a blown head gasket that would cost $1,000. That is 1/2 of what I paid for the vehicle. Clearly not  worth it to get it fixed. Thus began my 2 month struggle with finding rides to and from work, trying to balance a boyfriend, and car shopping.
September/October:
  • Boyfriend of 2 years and I broke up. I am still having a really hard time talking about it, despite it almost being.. 4 months(ish).
November/December:
  • The Ex goes ballistic and become a psycho babbling shit talking asshole. I cry nonstop for weeks.
  • The Holiday's. They are just rough, I have felt so alone. I'm continuing to develop these feelings and I don't know what to do with them. I am confused and irrational. But, 90% of my time is spent being irrational so I guess not too much has changed.

2010, you were a mean and nasty cold that I just couldn't get rid of (until 4 days from now that is). I hope your incessant ickyness doesn't carry over into what I am determined to make the best year of my life. I guess overall it wasn't that bad. I probably just feel worse than I should, but let me tell you 2010, I am ready for you to be over. This way I am forced to continue moving forward and have to look at the world with fresh eyes once again.


I hope with 2011 I find happiness and peace.


So 2010, I am bidding you adieu (for the next 4 days) because really, I am not terribly sorry to see you go.*


Yours truly,
Ella


HAPPY NEW YEAR!
May 2011 be the BEST year for each and every one of you.


*Thus begins my absence until the New Year. When I will bring you the final chapter of the Daddy Daughter Story and a post about my home city, Flint, MI. Get excited.

6 comments:

  1. You know its nice to know that someone else's 2010 sucked just ass much as mine. One day we will find 2010 when he is sleeping and suffocate him!

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  2. I sincerely hope so.

    I'll make a pillow for the special occasion.

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  3. And you made it through alive! That is a victory. I hope 2011 is kinder to you. 2010 sucked bootyhole for a lot of us.

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  4. And I thought my 2010 sucked. I hope 2011 is better for you.

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  5. I can't think of a better way to say a farewell to the worst f-ing year ever.
    2010 was an asshole to me all year long as well. My daughter got cancer, my two year old niece was struck and killed by a car, my daughter's roommate at the hospital, (also with cancer) died a few weeks ago.
    Anyway, great post, you did a fantastic job of telling off 2010. :-)
    Happy New Year.

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  6. It seems to me, 2010 sucked for everyone!
    HERES TO 2011!!! =)

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